Void of Space

I've seriously fucked up.

Never should have done that.

She said it was alright... but deep down, I knew it wasn't.

Goddamnit.

I'm turning into the kind of person I hate so much... the crude, rude, annoying, disgusting freak of a person. And I hate myself for it.

God how I hate myself.

I can't find any knives...

I don't know if she'll read my e-mail... she shouldn't bother. It's just another apology.

At this point... I don't think going to stay with her after I graduate is such a good idea.

Why? I'll just hurt her.

I don't mean to... but it just happens. I'm just as bad (if not worse) than the people who've walked all over her.

If there is a god, they hate me. A lot.