Void of Space

God... I don't know what to do. I'm feeling so lonely... kinda forlorn. Forgotten. It's not a good feeling.

I need to know someone cares. And I know people do... but there are days where I feel like everyone just ignores me.

Take mom and dad for instance. They tell me to look for a bike, to show it to them, and then we'd talk. Well, I looked for a motorcycle, found one, and had them look at it. So far, neither of them wants to talk.

I just want to go to sleep and not wake up, you know? Sleep life away... I don't feel that pain in my chest when I dream.

That's really all I have to look forward to, now. Sleep, and dreams that may never come true, and the only break that pain gives me.

I feel broken... or about there. But I don't know who's gonna catch me, or who's gonna bring me back up. Not Amanda, I know that. She hasn't sent me any word for well over a week... She's not there anymore.

I wish I could cry, but I'm too tired... Sometimes I wake up crying, though. They say crying is healthy, but I don't do that too often... and I'm completely alone when I do.