Void of Space

Why's Rachael doing this? She's letting these people get to her, and there isn't anything I can do to make her ignor it. She was talking like she was going to commit suicide, or was seriously thinking about it.

Scarey thing is, she's actually -tried- to do this before.

She's so... thick. Shallow might also be a good word. She cares too much about what other people think. And she doesn't listen to those who really care about her. She even acts selfish, but I don't think that's the real her. She's not selfish, she's just had a hard time and doesn't know how to get through it.

I've tried to let her know that I still have the same feelings for her that I did over a year ago, but I don't think she's getting it. I know there won't ever be a chance for us again, but I can still be there for her.

How can I feel like this for two different people?

I have a headache and my eyes hurt. I'm gonna go to bed. The only way I'll get to sleep is if I cry. I guess you gotta do what you gotta do...