Void of Space

Mom's chickens came yesterday. Well, the chicks did. We got them all moved in, and then noticed a few were looking kinda weak.

We noticed one too late. We got him in, and I was up all night and giving the chick water every hour, so I got no sleep. Came home during lunch to check on him, and he was looking worse. Could hardly stand, would barely drink, and he looked like he was having a hard time breathing. I sat down and cried and tried to get him to drink, and was almost late getting back to school. He peeped at me, sorta, when I was leaving.

I came back home, and he was dead.

I've always gotten attached to the animals we get, except maybe the cows. It just seems to me that animals return affection better than lots of humans do.

Babies shouldn't die, though.... no matter the species...


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I've finally let go of Amanda, like Rachael told me I should. Why hurt myself like that? If it burns, don't touch it. She won't help herself, she puts herself in bad situations and then wonders why these things have to happen. I should be looking out for myself, I need to get myself back on track. I could have been well into my religion and all, but I put it off... now I'm gonna try again.

I'm also going to be assertive, and try to make new friends. Most likely outside of Sidney, so I can get out of here every once and a while. Maybe Denver, lots of people and I like big cities. Maybe I'll get lucky and find a potential girlfriend who's sincere and who likes me for me.

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You're right, that doesn't happen often. It's okay to dream, though, right? As long as I don't get carried away.