Void of Space

I haven't gotten a response yet. I hope she's alright. I mailed her a late christmas present/late birthday present. I haven't gotten any word that she's recieved it.

I can feel my depression coming on. It's been happening for a few days now. I've been doing everything I can to make it go away, but I think I'm only slowing it down.

Can't think of much else to write... except the usual. "I'm lonely, I'm depressed, I wanna die..." I think I'm getting sick of myself. There really isn't anything I can do, except take my medicine and hope that something good has come out of this. Other than the return of the little voice saying "See? See? I told you trusting someone and trying to get close to them was a bad idea! See why you should listen to me?" ::shoots it::

Hope
n.

1. A wish or desire accompanied by confident expectation of its fulfillment.
2. Something that is hoped for or desired: Success is our hope.
3. One that is a source of or reason for hope: the team's only hope for victory.
4. often Hope Christianity. The theological virtue defined as the desire and search for a future good, difficult but not impossible to attain with God's help.
5. Archaic. Trust; confidence.

Not something that's here at the moment. It's more like resignated acceptance of something I don't like.

Blah.