Saturday, January 15, 2005
What does it mean... to believe someone? Does it mean to have faith in them, that they'll do the right thing, and make the right choices? Or does it mean to believe every word they say, as if it's set in stone?
Maybe... it is the former. To have faith in them. Just because they don't always keep their word... doesn't mean they don't do the right thing. Maybe... sometimes, maybe it's for the best that one's word isn't kept.
Knowing this doesn't take the hurt away.
'Tori couldn't believe in me... I let him down. He's dead... because of me. I should have paid more attention, should have taken better care of him. But I didn't. It's all my fault....
My eye is getting better. I can finally use it. Both eyes are extremely light sensative, though... I have to wear my sunglasses, even inside at night. At least I'm not wearing a patch anymore.
Alastrine is finally at lvl 11 sharps. And lvl 9 Focus Force. Maybe now she can fight back, like she's supposed to be able to. She'll be joining in a scenario that's focused on rebuilding the Poor Quarter of Spur. (Of course, I don't think any of you know what the hell I'm talking about, huh? Just write it off as babble)
My mood is very... blah. And I'm still trying to get over the fact that I nearly became what my character is. A one-eyed pain-in-the-ass. That's a joke, by the way. You're supposed to laugh.
But seriously.... I could have lost the sight in my left eye. If I hadn't gone to the doctor when I did... I could have actually lost my eye. Then I would be wearing a patch to school.
More later, if I'm coherent. Don't count on it.l
Maybe... it is the former. To have faith in them. Just because they don't always keep their word... doesn't mean they don't do the right thing. Maybe... sometimes, maybe it's for the best that one's word isn't kept.
Knowing this doesn't take the hurt away.
'Tori couldn't believe in me... I let him down. He's dead... because of me. I should have paid more attention, should have taken better care of him. But I didn't. It's all my fault....
My eye is getting better. I can finally use it. Both eyes are extremely light sensative, though... I have to wear my sunglasses, even inside at night. At least I'm not wearing a patch anymore.
Alastrine is finally at lvl 11 sharps. And lvl 9 Focus Force. Maybe now she can fight back, like she's supposed to be able to. She'll be joining in a scenario that's focused on rebuilding the Poor Quarter of Spur. (Of course, I don't think any of you know what the hell I'm talking about, huh? Just write it off as babble)
My mood is very... blah. And I'm still trying to get over the fact that I nearly became what my character is. A one-eyed pain-in-the-ass. That's a joke, by the way. You're supposed to laugh.
But seriously.... I could have lost the sight in my left eye. If I hadn't gone to the doctor when I did... I could have actually lost my eye. Then I would be wearing a patch to school.
More later, if I'm coherent. Don't count on it.l
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