Void of Space

This afternoon actually went pretty well. I was late getting to Matt's to get my hair cut, and ended up seeing Amanda soon after he was done. She came in when I was finishing off whatever he had picked off his plate for lunch. :P

We ended up spending the rest of the afternoon together. Went to Perkins for dinner after we stopped by my house. We ended up staying at the house for a while, I showed her Cyra and the dove (who still doesn't have a name). She also met that little monster Paddy, and his pansy mommy Willow.

I wish.... I could just be open with my feelings. But I don't know how.... I'm scared I'll mess up and never get a chance. Every time I finally manage to get the guts.... somethings takes that opportunity away. I wish I had more courage, so I could be more open. Take chances... It's hard for me to live like I'm gonna die the very next day before the sun even rises, when I know (or think) that something like that won't happen.

And none of these poems are saying what I want. And the ones I've written.... well.... I don't want to share one at the moment, I'm waiting to put it up at Fanfiction.Net. And they usually don't rhyme or make any sense what so ever.

I guess I wish I knew what I could say, but there's nothing. All I can do is hope I don't make a mistake by doing the wrong thing. Like leaving notes on windshields....