Tuesday, September 07, 2004
I don't know what's going on with me.
I have never, ever felt attracted to this girl. Even when I decided I was gay, I was never attracted to her. Now, I can't stop thinking about her. She's gay, or so she says, but she's dating a guy. From what she's been willing to tell me, she's only doing it because she's tired of all the gay-bashing and wants to try to get away from it. I can't say I blame her, but I can't force myself to date a guy just cause of that.
She says he's a nice guy and all, but she isn't happy. Maybe I have a chance?
It would risk my coming out to the whole school, which really isn't too great an idea. Mom would be super pissed, and if my grandparents and Bob and Audry found out... I don't think that would be a pretty outcome.
But would it be worth it? Or just a complete waste of time and the rest of my sanity? (Hahahaha, that's a good joke, me having sanity... hahahahaha!)
In case you can't tell, that laughing is very much sarcastic.
I have never, ever felt attracted to this girl. Even when I decided I was gay, I was never attracted to her. Now, I can't stop thinking about her. She's gay, or so she says, but she's dating a guy. From what she's been willing to tell me, she's only doing it because she's tired of all the gay-bashing and wants to try to get away from it. I can't say I blame her, but I can't force myself to date a guy just cause of that.
She says he's a nice guy and all, but she isn't happy. Maybe I have a chance?
It would risk my coming out to the whole school, which really isn't too great an idea. Mom would be super pissed, and if my grandparents and Bob and Audry found out... I don't think that would be a pretty outcome.
But would it be worth it? Or just a complete waste of time and the rest of my sanity? (Hahahaha, that's a good joke, me having sanity... hahahahaha!)
In case you can't tell, that laughing is very much sarcastic.
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