Tuesday, August 31, 2004
Why is it that I've done so much and have so little to show for it? Was I a terrible person in a past life, and now karma is after my ass? What did I do to deserve everything that's happening to me?
Is it because I'm gay? Does being gay give me enough reason to not deserve anything?
Why can't I just find someone to be happy with? Is that too much to ask for?
What the hell.... no one's listening. No one's going to read this... She's not going to read this. Ever. Why do I even bother? She's not intersted in me... no one's interested in me.
And I'm not talking about Rachael, either.
Is it because I'm gay? Does being gay give me enough reason to not deserve anything?
Why can't I just find someone to be happy with? Is that too much to ask for?
What the hell.... no one's listening. No one's going to read this... She's not going to read this. Ever. Why do I even bother? She's not intersted in me... no one's interested in me.
And I'm not talking about Rachael, either.
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ok so im here and i rad it i do want to know whats going on in your head.... as far as a relationship? ill be honest... i dont know what the hell i want i am so confused.... stressed... and again crazy.. so many thoughts.. id hurt you... not intentionally... but iu would it seems to be pattern... yes i want to be here for you love the way your mind works, and the timid way you watch me i feel it.. but you know? im not ready for more....
until you write me..
mandy
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until you write me..
mandy
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: September 17, 2004 at 12:25 PM