Thursday, May 06, 2004
My hormones are going out of control. I have no idea if I'm gay, straight, bi, or even asexual. This is going to be a very miserable last three weeks of school...
I'm scared to get into another relationship. I'm scared of being hurt all over again. I don't want to go through that pain a second time. I almost didn't make it the first time. I was loyal to her, I thought of hardly anyone but her, I talked to her and supported her... now she's left me and doesn't even e-mail me. She KNOWS it's hard for me to find internet time, and I can't chat on AIM/AOL on the school computers. Damn school board rulings and damn firewall...
And I'm betting that I'm forgotten, and she's probably already got a new girlfriend.
I'm scared to get into another relationship. I'm scared of being hurt all over again. I don't want to go through that pain a second time. I almost didn't make it the first time. I was loyal to her, I thought of hardly anyone but her, I talked to her and supported her... now she's left me and doesn't even e-mail me. She KNOWS it's hard for me to find internet time, and I can't chat on AIM/AOL on the school computers. Damn school board rulings and damn firewall...
And I'm betting that I'm forgotten, and she's probably already got a new girlfriend.
